Spring should appear any day now and as winter leaves us so do the excuses I have the ability to make to bypass a run or skip a workout. Now weather will not be a factor and a good many hours are about to be logged in the great out doors. The kids are already outside every chance they get and so the volume of television being watched is in a steady decline. This leads me to the decision to cancel cable at the end of the month.
As I contemplate the decision I realize that most of what is aired on television whether we realize it or not conditions and programs our thoughts. Television is full of negative superficially driven garbage. It seems after I watch the news I feel much worse than before I started. Constant remarks are made on sitcoms about people’s outward appearance and in commercials as well. No where in today’s media do we see the focus on our inner self…..our inner spirituality.
“If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. If an egg is broken by an inside force, life begins. Great things always begin from the inside.” – Jim Kwik
This made me stop and think for a long time. Great things always begin from the inside…..this is so true in many aspects of life. I happened to be having a very high anxiety day at the time. The kind where you can almost feel every heart beat and your chest feels tight to the point of it feeling like it is hard to breath yet you can breathe just fine. Then there is the feeling of a 1000 bees buzzing in your chest and the back of your throat all day that slowly sucks the energy out of you. I feel good on the outside but terrible on the inside at times. I don’t always have anxiety but the times I do I try to figure out why. How can I be feeling great one day and on top of the world and then the next be crippled by anxiety?
There are so many things out there banging away on our outer shells. Trying to break in and grab a piece of us little by little until we don’t know who we really are anymore or what we are about. If we fueled ourselves from the inside out then we would be much stronger, resilient, and powerful. I found this application in a blog post that seemed very fitting to the outer versus inner battle we all face:
God’s desire is for every Believer to be strengthened with POWER by the Spirit in the inner man. There was a story of an old cowboy who visited an Indian reservation. He sat down with the chief to have a meal. As they were eating, he noticed that a couple of the chief’s dogs got into a fight. The dogs were going around and around. The cowboy asked the chief, “Which dog do you think will win?” The chief without hesitation said, “The one that I feed the most.”
The application is that there is often a struggle that goes on within us between the inner man and the outer man. Which will win? The one that we feed the most! We are to take off the old and put on the new.
“That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts; And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness” (Ephesians 4:22-24). – http://www.wholeperson-counseling.org/ndoc/insideot.html
The more I feed my spirit the less anxiety I have and the more strength I feel flow through me. Daily devotionals are just that….and re meant to be done at least daily. Like all things in life we can let things slide as we “get busy” and so we workout less and eat fast food more etc. I do not think we can let the time we spend with God slide ever. Life is too short to not get to know him on a very close personal level. As our spirit is strengthened all things in life become possible. To run 50 kilometers I will need God to be with me step by step along the way. Please share in the comments your favorite ways to connect with God so that we may learn form each other.